Boredom strikes.
✂: Share one of the hardest moments in your life.
When I found out about the truth. The truth about the first 7 months of my relationship with my boyfriend. All the heartaches I felt after finding out about certain things, my world just seemed to break apart. I was about to give up, and honestly, up until now, I’m still traumatized about the past. Still hurting when thinking about it. Still crying when having nightmares about it.
æ: Post a picture of yourself.
TBehind these eyes are happiness, sadness and heartaches.✌: Share a childhood memory.
I always had good grades since Kindergarten. I was an honored student with medals.
♡: Make a confession.
I don’t know if I could afford having another heartache again. I have had enough and am already traumatized. I worked so hard to open up, and I just got betrayed by so many people, especially those that I love the most. I’m afraid to feel so much pain, that sometimes, I tried to harm myself.
❁: Share one of your insecurities.
I have so many insecurities. I need to lose so much weight. Basically, if I become thin and sexy, all those insecurities might go away. Ever since one THE truth, my self-esteem lowered even more. I couldn’t (well still can’t actually) stop blaming myself for what has been done to me; if I was already enough for him and if he was already satisfied with what and who I really am, then things might have been different.
✓: Share something about yourself others might think is weird.
Hmm.. I don’t claim to be perfect, but atm, I can’t think of one. I actually can be weird when I get bored. I just say crazy things.
☹: Share a turn off.
Bad odor. I’m VERY sensitive when it comes to bad smell. I easily puke. I’m not being too exaggerated, but I’ve been that way ever since I was still young.
☀: Share a turn on.
Woah big turn on: guys with talents, such as dancing, singing or guys, who play instruments. Sexy!
And my knees get weak whenever a guy has a beautiful smile that shows off his nice teeth.
♬: Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past.
My first heartache.
♧: Share the story of something that makes you smile.
Whenever my boyfriend texts me randomly in the middle of the night telling me how much he loves me. The sweet good morning messages and especially when he kisses me on the forehead unexpectedly. Cheesy, right?
☆: Share one thing you think about before you you go to bed at night.
I rethink everything that has happened in the past. I try to overanalyze and think of when I’ve done wrong. Why things happened the way they did. These cause the nightmares I get. I should stop analyzing the past, and start concentrating on the present and the future.
☮: Share a relationship story.
In my current relationship, I have experienced things way beyond my expectations about being in a serious relationship. My plans and my imaginations turned upside down. I never thought I could hurt that much and still love the person. I never thought I was capable to give chances, when before, I promised myself to never let various things happen to me. Despite all the fights, screaming, swearing and crying, the love still overpowers everything. Malcommunication and lack of time for eachother are big reasons for misunderstanding that lead to hurting eachother.
Sometimes we plan things that don’t turn out the way we expected them to happen.
Sometimes we have to get really hurt and let people step on us heartlessly to make us stronger.
It’s all a matter of time when we finally get the chance to stand on our own, and be independently happy.
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Don’t get into a relationship…
- If you’re still gonna act single.
- If you’re still gonna talk to a lot of people of the opposite sex.
- If you’re not gonna be able to support them when they need it.
- If you’re not gonna be able to make time for them.
- If you’re still caught up with your ex.
- If you’re not ready to commit to just one person.
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You deserve someone who knows how to make things up to you after hurting you. Not someone who is very good with just the word, “sorry.”
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Forgive and forget
Why is it hard to leave the past behind? Why is it more difficult to forgive those people you love the most than those you don’t really care about? It’s not easy to forgive, when people you give your whole love to, hurt you, because they are not meant to be the ones, who could have the strenght and courage to hurt you even a tiny little bit. If you really did mean a lot to them, they would try their very best not to hurt you and make you cry. That’s the exact reason why it’s too difficult for me to forgive my loved ones. Maybe, when the time is right and wounds are healed, I may forgive, but once things have been said and done, I can never forget. They say, you can easily forgive, but you can never forget what people made you feel.
I love you and yes I’m being real.
If you really loved me, you wouldn’t dare hurt me too.
I’ll never forget the things you made me feel;
please do understand that if you make me cry, it’ll be hard for me to forgive you easily and start anew.
Starting anew means forgiving and forgetting..
maybe one day when wounds are healed, you can have my forgiveness,
but please don’t expect me to forget what you did because that’s the only thing i can hold on to as a learning experience and use as a defense mechanism once someone comes along and starts hurting me too.
But just remember, that despite all the hurting and simply everything, I still love you.
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